I am starting a new blog on my journey to getting healthier & fitter! I recently joined my gym and have already lost 5 pounds. The site will document my work-outs, eating, triumphs and struggles. I hope the blog will motivate me to have a constant reminder of where I'm coming from and where I am going. You can check it out at http://primadharma.blogspot.com Primadharma translated is "One Path". I thought it was appropriate for my journey!

I will still have Day In The Life for my personal blogging on whatever I feel lke, haha.

All The Best,

Erin

Can't sleep...ate...to...much..chocolate

Gosh I feel like I gained 20lbs these past 2 days. Eating,drinking... at least I was merry through it all! I got to see my friend Bridget, my cousins came down for Thanksgiving, hung out at my sisters friend's house last night. Fun fun...

Fun little survey to do...


What was your love life like a year ago?
Exact same as it is now

Have you ever had a serious conversation with your dad?
Yes, lots of wisdom infused....meaning of life type stuff.

Hook-up or the whole relationship thing?
Hook-up please, casually date too...

Who is your closest friend of the opposite sex?
Don't have too many guy friends but my cousin and I are close

Last person to make you smile?
My sister

Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
Myself

What was the last song you listened to?
Top Chef theme song

Name one person who is the most like you?
My fried Kristina from Cali. We have the same humor and demenor

What would you do if your best friend moved?
Wish her luck. I'd be sad but it would be a different place to visit

What is something you really want right now?
A glass of water....

What are you doing this coming weekend?
Well it's Saturday, my life has been pretty fun lately. Maybe shooting a wedding. Not spending to much $$

Do you have any fun plans for today?
Tomorrow I plan on doing random errands, job hunting, yuck.

Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
My sister and parents

Last person who held your hand?
A guy I met out a couple weeks ago

What are you listening to at the moment?
Silence. yuck I'm depressing

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
I'm getting sick of my long hair....uh oh

Do you want to cut your hair?
Yes but everyone says nooo

Are you in a good mood? If yes, Why?
I'm tired but feeling creative, hence this survey

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Hmmm punch? Not sure of anyone lately

Do you think your ex still likes you?
Hahahaha

What is wrong with you right now?
I'm tired, overly full and feel gross

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
I'm the queen of thinking everyone is my soulmate

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Eh...people always are coming and going.

Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Yes

Has someone close to you passed away this year?
My dog:-( still sad

Do you watch "The Hills"?
Yes it's a guilty pleasure

Last CD you Played?
My mixed one of soul music

What are you thinking about right now?
My ex boyfriends for some reason

Wearing any bracelets?
nope

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Drinking/hanging with the girls

Have you ever gone to a beach?
I live 10 minutes from the beach

What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Orange Sherbert

How long does it take you to get ready?
I'm pretty fast, but I get sidetracked a lot

What are you wearing?
Victorias Secret patterned pajama pants and a purple tank top

When was the last time you smiled?
I'm half smiling right now!

Good night....Off to bed.

Giveaway Giveaway Giveaway now

So this giveaway I found is really fun and so cute. Leaving & Loving on a Jet Plane Is giving away a stemware set from Pottery Barn titled "Marie Antoinette Coup Stemware, soooo cute. So go enter!

Best. Thing. Ever.

Michael Phelps... AN (almost) ENCOUNTER

"Okay before I start telling you this, your have to promise your going to believe me", was the words spoken by the guy I met last night in AC.... and the plot thickens

So I'm at Harrah's Pool in Atlantic City, which is a great nightlife club that isn't to clubby and reeeallllly beautiful. I'm chatting it up with some random guy who I'm not attracted to but he makes good conversation. So I ask him, "Why are you here tonight" and he says the above statement. He sparked my curiosity right then and there. He informs me that he is neighbors with Michael Phelps, Phelps asked him if he wanted to TAKE A DAY TRIP to AC to gamble AND Trump flew them out on one of his jets. Soooooo I'm laughing at this point thinking this guy is totally trying WAY to hard. The best athlete in the world at Harrah's Pool nonetheless (leave it to Michael Phelps to goto the casino with the sweet pool). OK so he whips out a picture first of the jet taken at night (it looked legit) THEN a picture of him with Michael Phelps and he's wearing the same shirt! O M G

So My friend Amanda is talking to the other kid and she turns around and also is freaking out because the story is pretty legit. He knows Phelps's dogs name etc... said he lived with him for a month, went to same high school, he's not B.Sing.

SO I asked him "Where is HE?" He says he's playing a private game of cards in the building. O M G outcries again. So I'm chatting to him some more just to be in the presence of someone who is friends with someone of greatness (haha) and he asks my friend and I if we want to go hang out at their hotel suite. I was assuming with PHELPS! Mind you I'm not drunk, but I am starstruck and freaking out. MY friend and I follow these guys out to their Limo, then all of a sudden a wave of questions plague my thoughts..

What if they are liars & con artists?

What if they are taking us to a shady place and are LYING

What if the whole thing is B.S (you get the point)

Honestly though they were totally telling the truth, they were nice guys and both my friend and I admitted they were not sketchy. BUT my other friend who was drunk was like "Hell no, I am not getting in there (she hadn't been talking to them) so we kinda just ditched them and left ( It was also 5am).

So who knows if I would've rendezvoused with Micheal at the Taj sipping on vodka infused with the gold of his medals chatting it up with him about his uhhh strokes....ummm err...

Wow.... Maybe we would've met him, maybe not, but all in all it was a pretty memorable night to say the least.

The Good, The Bad & The Truth

No one I know (personally) reads my blog. That's the way I like it. I don't know if what I am about to say is "venting" or writing out my confusion with people's decisions lately. So, recently my sister's 2 best friends both found out they were pregnant (Age 21). They are both equally immature, still in their crazy party years and can barely take care of themselves. They said they forgot to use birth control. At first I felt shock, then I was thinking that safe sex is the one thing your cannot be lenient about. Okay, so not done. Today I find out my other friend (Age 23) is pregnant. You may be saying to yourself, "23, that's ok!) It reality, this friend drinks more than any friend I have, smokes 2 packs a day and has no job (still in school). I know these things, "just happen" and you cannot reverse them, but I wonder if these girls actually "forgot" the birth control. The three of them are dramatic and crave attention. Being skeptical, I wonder if these "accidents" are really legit or maybe just a simple cry for help. The miracle of life is an amazing thing, and I am not condemning their right to have a baby. It just seems fishy to me.

I don't know what to feel about it...and I don't know if I ever will until I am in their shoes. It's shocking to me though that these 3 girls, with whom I saw partying it up for at least 3 more years will be with child in 9 months. It's unknown the reasons why our lives take turns, and sometimes the turn comes to a screeching halt. Other times we are finally out of the dark tunnel and events occur that help us to see the light. Crazy events like this are sometimes a sign to chill out or just show someone consequences to their actions. It could be deeper and be a cry for help, or it's as simple as them forgetting to use birth control..... They are the only ones who know the truth.

Ugh...

Twilight zone

I finished Twilight...

...and Loooooved it. Stephanie Meyer is not only a great writer, but writes with passion and keeps your wanting more. The love scenes were pretty passionate I must say!!!!! The storyline has that Harry Potter-esque feel of a distant reality while reading, (the vampires have a history and it's supported by storyline facts that make it all make sense to you). I'm super excited for the movie as well. I feel this book should be read by my generation, because it falls on that line of maturity and playfulness. You feel old enough to understand the emotions Bella and Edward feel, but you can't resist wishing all the super powers the vampires had were real (mannn....)

Anyway, read it, don't feel "too old". Trust me, it's great. Off to the movie on Friday.

Cold Cold day in NJ... Snow maybe tonight.

Still haven't gotten a call from the film company....maybe soon. Trying not to think about it, hence finishing a 500 page book in 48 hours.

Off to watch Biggest Loser, I kinda love it.

And for you.....

Music of the day ~ Jack Johnson ~ Christmas Album! YAYYY!




AND

Head on over to Grounded Fitness for a giveaway of "Nature's Path" products. I Loooove their bars/hot cereal, good and organic :)

Who is this?.... It's me

For some reason I can't get enough of this SNL skit. Is it because Paul Rudd is hot, or that the hahahaha song is infectious....It's twisted and dark but so unlike normal SNL and friggin' hilarious.

Did anyone catch Justin Timerlake's dance in Beyonce's video! So funny too

Tofu Medley

Just got back from Borders!

Bought the Twilight books 1 and 2, (I know I am one of those people now hahaha) and made myself a delicious lunch:



It includes

1/2 block of marinated bbq tofu I had from 2 days ago.

1/4 of cut cucumber

1 slice of American Cheese

drizzle of bbq sauce and Franks Red Hot Sauce (I'm obsessed with it)

1 Whole Wheat Mission Wrap

It's delicious.....yummmmmmmmm

I'll let you know how Twilight is....Hopefully worth the read :)

Diet or obsession...

I stumbled on an article at The Weighting Game about orthorexia. This definitely opened my eyes to a fine line between healthy eating and obsession...

Excerpt:

When eating begins to interfere with your life, monopolize your time or dictate how "good" or "pure" you feel, there's a problem.

There's always a point where you need to step back and draw a line that could save your life.

Glow on over....

I've always been out to find blogs that keep me going back to read each day. I have most of them listed in my "sites I visit". I don't usually advertise on here but, I reeeally love Angela's blog over at "Oh She Glows". Not only for the fact that she featured me in her post today for sending in a "food" post, (it's funny my food consists of coffee and wine!), but she writes on a varied list of topics such as health, food, lifestyle, fashion and product reviews. She also does interactive polls which I love. I am pretty selective with blogs, in that some are hard to read, overly bragging, or trying to "preach" something. Angela's blog is far from anything I dislike. She's sincere and honest and well... just go check it out :-)

Oh She Glows

Tell her Erin sent you :-)

I'm off to eat some sushi and food shop a little. I need ideas for a Thanksgiving appetizer away from the traditional

It's been a long day

First and last drink of the day...




enough said my friends....

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(P.S. I did cheesily place the wine in line with my header on my blog!!)

Positively 4th Street

Had the interview....

And it went VERY WELL! He said I could start off doing part-time odds and ends and office work. I'd also get to goto the film shoots! He's going to call me next week.... to confirm I guess? Honestly I would do ANYTHING (almost!) to just work in film production. He was such an interesting man, not creepy at all just interesting. He paints, does real estate, antique appraisal. He also asked me the most random questions on my interview like.

1. Do you smoke?
2. Have you ever been injured?
3. Are you married (um errr haha)

Whats the weirdest interview questions you've ever been asked?


My best friend Ashley works in the building, who got me the interview, and we went to Java on 4th street for lunch. I had a mozzerella, basil and tomato baquette which was delicious and fresh tasting. I really liked the area the building was in. It is a magnified version of small town Fort Collins, but still eclectic. The commute was about an hour and a half, which if I work out hours I think I can pull-off.

It's weird when you're on the brink of a life change, or on the brink of a let down. I picture myself standing on the edge of an airplane waiting to freefall and it makes my stomach jump. It's these moments in your life though that when you look back on them you daydream about the excitement you felt. I love uncertainty and chaos, unlike others. So I'm going to wait with bated breath for the biggest news of my life.... Translation... I will be going out with my friends tonight and placing all this in the back of my head.

Song of the day: Days Like This - Van Morrison & Positively 4th Street - Bob Dylan (it just seems appropriate:-)

Have a good weekend....

Interview - Check

I got a call from the film company owner.

The interview is tomorrow morning in Philly! Haven't been there in a while! And I get to see my best friend Ashley who I haven't seen in a year! It's a win-win either way I think!

Off to my friend Daryl's then possibly shopping for an "interview" shirt.

Rainy Rainy day here...I just took a long bath and read "Haunted". It's kinda hard to get through....Even though I love Chuck Palahniuk.

Kind of non-exciting day.

Marinating tofu (bbq style) for dinner! YUM.

Happy Thursday~

Shrimp Chowder by Erin&Sis

Just adding...

My sister and I made delicious (spicy) shrimp chowder 2 days ago! We used 2lbs of shrimp and used a lot of ingredients off of Ina Garten's Shrimp Bisque recipe here (we doubled it too):

Ingredients

* 1 pound large shrimp, peeled and deveined, shells reserved
* 4 cups seafood stock
* 3 tablespoons good olive oil (I hate when she says "good")
* 2 cups chopped leeks, white and light green parts (We used carrots celery and onions instead, yum)
* 1 tablespoon chopped garlic (3 cloves)
* Pinch cayenne pepper
* 1/4 cup Cognac or brandy (didn't use this didn't matter)
* 1/4 cup dry sherry
* 4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) unsalted butter
* 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
* 2 cups half-and-half
* 1/3 cup tomato paste
* 2 teaspoons kosher salt
* 1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper



I added some extra spice (curry/cayenne), a bag of shrimp seasoning that you take out after 8 minutes, and some coconut milk (which was SUCH A GOOD ADDITION). I made homemade seafood stock too, which is simply by just putting the shells in the broth.

My dad and mom said it was a little to spicy, BUT I tried it again today and the flavors tasted so good together! I am a spice freak!!!

To Good To Be True

My best friend Ashley called me today with some good news....

The film company that works in her building may be calling me for an interview this week! WHAT????? The owner said my resume was impressive. The thing is, when stuff like this happens to me, I always get this bittersweet feeling. I am excited and overjoyed but also doubtful and psyching myself out at the same time. This job would be a dream come true.... I am not even kidding. Not only would I be working in film production, BUT I'd be working in the same building as my best friend.... Ok see what just happened?

I go off on a tangent about it get all excited then realize, "What if I DON'T get it?" It would be so heartbreaking. It's the paradox of my life. I always did say to myself when I moved out West that, "What's the worst thing that could happen?". I think I need to work on not thinking ahead and just focusing on what is occurring right now. I tend to get ahead of myself to the point where I am on a mountain looking down on myself saying, "C'mon, follow me up!" Or I'm at the bottom of looking up saying, "Erin, come down, you're not there yet".

Besides this new addition to the "job hunting extravaganza" I call my life, I am still waiting to hear about the details of the New Orleans trip. Who knows what it'll entail.

As for my social life, I haven't been this happy in a while with the people I am around. I do miss so many people from CO, but there's a certain comfortable feeling I get when I am around my sister, parents and friends from NJ. I had forgotten a lot of great conversations and points of view that they enlighten me with on a daily basis. Going away from a comfort zone is a good thing because it shows you what your made of, but I think the feeling of returning beats going away any day.

Wow, I'm extremely deep today. Maybe I should tread to shallower waters for a little bit and go watch some Food Network.

And with that a message from Bob:

I don't think the human mind can comprehend the past and the future. They are both just illusions that can manipulate you into thinking theres some kind of change.
Bob Dylan

...so right...all the time

Let the seasons begin... it rolls right on

MUSIC
Sooo, I first heard this song over the summer when I listened to a CD my sister burned. The song is "Elephant Gun" by Beirut. I just stumbled on it again and wow. It is soooo beautiful and at the same time unlike anything I've heard in a while.

When I shut my eyes I'm in a small village dancing around in a flowery skirt with the mariachi band playing. It's AMAZING. Listen here:

The video is out there, but pretty passionate. I think you could describe it best as "drunken splendor". Ahhh.... flowery, vibrant and melodic.

TV
Side note.... It's happened. I've been bit by the vampire bug. Actually my friend Sonia has gotten me obsessed with "True Blood" and has RAVED about Twilight for the past 2 weeks. True Blood is in that phase right now where it will either take off or crash. I think it's intriguing except that lead girl Suki annoys me. The concept is interesting and it plays on the whole good vs. evil card. She said she read the book in 4 days and it's 600 pages AND she hates to read. The series has nothing to do with the book/movie except for the fact that there are vampires involved.

I don't know why this has such an appeal to me. I'm usually down for "The Office" type TV. I watch "Entourage" on Sundays and True Blood is on before. I feel like I've always made fun of "vampire-eqsue" pop culture until now. Maybe I feel like vampires are kinda hot, in the mysterious, kinda eclectic types I usually fall for, who suck the life out of you on their disposal, haha. Sooner or later I'm going to be ordering red wine at bars and using pale cover-up. Watch out. HAHA. I'm buying the book tomorrow to see what all the actual fuss is about. Until then, I'll have to simply assume I was put under hypnosis which caused the obsession.

There is a house in New Orleans......

Soo......

A lot has happened in the last 12 hours.

I recently got a call from the company I had an interview with to shoot a documentary for the Sugar Bowl, and.......

They want me to shoot the documentary!!!!

It's funny I had no idea what the Sugar Bowl was, or that is was in New Orleans, but I'm going from December 30th to January 3rd and well I have absolutely no clue what equipment I'll have, who I'll be with or where I'll be staying. So this is my official first PAID business trip and I hope I have many more! I just can't believe I'm getting paid to go on a trip to shoot video, which is what I love doing. Everything DOES HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

My friend Kim told me about this book called, "The Secret", I'm sure you've heard of it. It's motto is to think about what you want to happen and it will. I wanted this job and believed I would get it and I did. Haha, I may be sounding like an extreme optimist but every time I've used this mantra, it's worked for the most part.

My good friend from college is also passing my resume onto a film producer who works in her building in Philly. We'll see if anything happens. If her and I worked in the same building my life would be complete.


So, this sure beats my self-loathing previous posts about the world and the job market. Even though still no "full-time" job has been landed, I hope this opportunity leads me to new ventures, or just to New Orleans, on New Years? Hopefully I'll get to party a little, hahahaha.

I'm shooting a wedding tomorrow in Hammonton with my co-worker Jay. He's my age so things are usually pretty chill. My friend Jess did know him from high school and told me a pretty incriminating story involving him, his ___ a picture and a piercing. Hmmm.... I can't seem to get this out of my head. And to think I was slightly attracted to him. Maybe I still am, hahahahaha. No one that reads this will tell.

So, Life is good, and has always come around and helped me out when I needed it!

So for music today, I really love Kings of Leon lately and love "Use Somebody" and "Sex on Fire". Trust me, listening to them once won't do it, you'll think it's nothing special. But listen to them again and you'll see what I mean.

Peace, Love, and Future Ventures,
Erin

Proud

~Postsecret entry last week...


Right on....

Bob is a genius

Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.
If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outside
And it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand

Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.

Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'.
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'.

Profound.....and fitting

It may be years until the day
My dreams will match up with my pay


~Mushaboom - Feist


That songs sums up my dream someday, listen to it.

Weather poem

Is is just me or is my weather forecast for the day a cute rhyme poem:

Windy with morning showers
evolving to a steady, soaking rain for the afternoon hours.
Thunder is possible early. High 47F.
Winds WNW at 25 to 35 mph. Chance of rain 70%.
Rainfall around a half an inch.

Hahaha...

I love the rain and love this lazy day. Job hunting is a no-go today. Not feeling it.

The Jobless Horseman

To any jobless twenty-somethings, I feel your pain.

So upon my move back to New Jersey, I figured, "eh this job hunting thing cannot be too bad being that I job hunted in a state I had never been before, by myself and without knowing anyone". The truth is, THIS SUCKS. I spend countless hours everyday applying to any and every position remotely related to video production or editing. Some non-profit jobs and some clerical work too. It's almost a mental slap in the face, but to be truthful and cynical, because the truth IS CYNICAL, having only a college degree just doesn't cut it anymore. I'm not even sure if I am doing the right thing by applying online mostly.

AND to make matters worse, this is the most catastrophic economic crisis in decades! You might as well give me not only a slap in the face but a kick in the ass too. If your not in fields such as:

-Teaching
-Government Work
-Medical/Dental

Seyonora my dream of having a loft apartment in Boston with my high paying job at a video production company.... Just a dream I'll have to put on hold until this slump ends or a miracle happens. Wait, but according to mainstream newspaper articles written by 50-somethings stereotyping our generation, our expectations are too high, and we feel we are all special unique little snowflakes, hindering our success rate. My expectation as of now is to make ANY TYPE OF money, and it's your generations fault we're in this mess.
Sorry for the rant....

It's a hard-knock life for us twenty-somethings

Twenty-something

Perfectly fits my life...

Change of plans...

I've decided I wanna be something bad ass for Halloween so.....



And it's my homage to Angelina, I love her!

Halloween party friday can't wait!

HALLOWEEN

I know what I'm gonna be for Halloween!!

It involves a tool belt and sweetness

Can you guess?......





woot woot

Fallness

Veranzano Wine Festival --- Daryl's having her baby in a week!

I'm back in NJ, moved back around August 1st and am so happy with the decision I made. I am loving seeing all my friends, taking part in the fall activities I love with people I love and for the first time in 5 years being home during this time. The job hunt is going slow but I am working part-time at Alliance Video Productions attending bridal shows and doing videography at the weddings. I am happy life is good.

I recently read an article about listing things you want to achieve in your life to better organize yourself. I have only 5 things I want to accomplish before the end of the year, since I feel like this year I was on overload of achieving crazy things. I can check off "move across the country" for sure:

1. Meditate at least once a day for a half and hour... (When I was at Shambhala Mountain Center working, I meditated at least an hour a day, it's funny how my sleeping has changed since being there. Meditation DOES make you sleep better!!!)

2. Get a job to make some profit... (I don't care if it's remedial, I have my video job on the side. I just want to save some then move out again by next year:-)

3. Exercise once a day...( I have a free gym membership for a week because I can't afford the whole one, but I do Loooooove biking)

4. Focus on the NOW.... With so much grief going on in the country right now, I am thankful to have what I have and be where I am. For people my age today it's really rough finding an entry level job, especially in the corporate world. I was lucky to develop my resume so much in Colorado.

5. READ!.... I looove reading but my TV fix was much needed after Shambhala, haha and I lately have been taking full advantage of that! I have Haunted by Chuck Palhanuik, one other by him and Elizabeth, since I am recently a freak about her time period.

That's about it.... Just been going out with my good friends recently, went to a couple festivals, bridal show, trivia @ the bar, CHEG and yeah it's fall and beautiful in Little Egg.


<3 Erin

P.S ~ Vote for Obama..... I'm not very mainstream political but I feel at ease when I picture him as president.

Song of the day- Ray LaMontagne's new CD, listen on Myspace

HOME!

Back in NJ. Didin't keep up much with this lately. Thinking of starting a blog in a new direction.... Because lately that's the only way I'm heading........

Update soon!

Day in Day out

Soo this week has basically been the most ridiculously overworked week I have ever had. I have been freelancing in Broomfield from 8am to 5 and yesterday went directly from Brookfield to Cafe Vino till 10. I am feeling delirious. The only ME time I've had is when I am sleeping. It's an unreal sad feeling. I just can't fathom how I would ever do this the rest of my life, (work 12 hours a day). Thankfully Broomfield ends today but I'm stuck here copying CDS for my project (WHICH TAKES FOOOOORRRREEEVVERRR) and I have Cafe Vino again tonight at 5. I seriously seriously need extreme fun tomorrow or I'll freak out.

Besides working I am still interning one day a week at 99.9 which is fun, and I went to Denver Friday for Kelly's "Passion Party" which was so funny. I have been eating horribly because I never have time to.

Ok well I'm done complaining. I need a weeks worth of yoga after this week.

In Broomfield I've been editing footage of the National Western Stock Show (I knowwww), and also this pre-school promo they are doing which wasn't bad at all.

Cafe Vino is sweet, there is just soooo many people to get to know. I am basically helping out when I am there getting dishes, helping bring out plates, water etc.... ya know brain surgery. I honestly don't even care that it has nothing to do with my hopes, dreams, aspirations... in the words of Boston, "All I want is to have a piece of mind"............

I met a girl at Vino who is 32 and worked in the parks up until she moved back to CO. She's 32 working as a waitress and happy. I'm not saying that's my ultimate goal but bottom line is, she's happy.

I can't say I am miserable, but I am not liking my life this week.
But one good thing is......
Anddddd Dana comes in 13 days!
Bridget's wedding is in July and is going to be SICK!

I got 4 free CDS from the radio station, RHCP "Stadium Arcadium", Ingrid Michealson, Maroon 5 and The Killers. I LOVE RHCP's CD. the others are pretty good too.

Alright I seriously need to get out of here before I freak.

Song of the day - "Piece of mind" - Boston

Good things happen to those who wait

About a week ago I wrote about job hunting etc.... and I LITERALLY have been going insane with job interviews/ resume submissions etc... I probably applied to 40 jobs in the past week. The freak out happened 2 days ago when I checked my bank account and realized I could not pay my rent this month. It was a translation for failure in my eyes that my parents had to bail me out this month. I was this crazy 20 year old who had big plans of moving across the country to get a job, a life and a new perspective and it blew up in my face.... until....

I took a deep breath, realized things COULD be worse and just kept with the job hunt. I swear when your jobless you feel every other person around you is successful, happy, in love and perfect, and you're the opposite. The grass is definitaly greener on the other side that's for sure. So anyway, I checked my e-mail this morning and the film company from Broomfield wrote me and offered me a freelance position (short-term for now) of digitizing and authorizing their footage. I was ESCTATIC! Not only was this a job, but a job at a company that does what I love to do! The people at this company knew the people from my old job in Loveland so they probably put in a good word for me. I hope that by starting out doing this job with them, I could move to editing or producing with them! I still need benefits, I still need security of a salaried position, but one step at a time. I can pay my rent, the end. So yay, things are looking up for me.

Besides the job thing, life has bee good. Kelly came up over the weekend and me, her, Molly, and Nathan went biking Saturday and after went to all 3 breweries in Fort Collins for some free samples. It was so much fun (pics above). I also went to a country bar last week and loved it! I attempted line dancing it was hilarious. LOTS of cowboys.

It may have been because it was a "bad time of the month" or just the job stress, but my emotions over the past 2 days had been up and down. I would cry then feel ok then see a sad commercial (umm the one with the toyota with the kids that says at the end "The best nights don't end with TV) and a family is camping) or hear a nostalgic song and be all over the place.

Tonight I am going to volunteer meeting for trail volunteers in the area for something to do on the weekends with good people. I've always wanted to do trail maintenence so we'll see how it goes.

Kelly's party is Friday and Superbowl is Sunday (I think we're hanging out with these sweet kids we met last Sunday).

It's funny though that during my time of uncertainty I didn't write on here. It's almost like I put my indulgences on hold.


As for me, I have been going to the gym a lot, and ran on the treadmill yesterday for 25 mins (2 minute break intervals haha I know I am pathetic). I think I got to comfortable with the eliptical and need more of a challenge s I am slowly going work up to longer on the treadmill. I am not the best runner though I need to get a better technique. ALSO, Bridget's wedding is in July and I'm in it (yay!) so I wanna look good. I've been eating well (except for the day we did the brewery we all went nuts with food) and feel good. Dana comes to CO in 20 days and my mom is visiting in March.

Seriously, I can vouch for the saying, "This too shall pass".... because even though it seems like it never will, life cuts you a break.


Thankfully,
Er

Job Limbo

-- ride to interview





So my first week back has been pretty busy despite the fact that I am not working. I've had 2 interviews, one for a film company the other for the IT department for the county. I also also applied where Molly works Cafe' Vino, which seems like a fun place. It so annoying because they both said they'd let me know in the next week soooo... I can't apply for jobs while I am waiting to here from others. It's a Catch-22 - I think the number in the phrase "Catch 22" is fitting for most 22 year olds. You have to get a job but have little experience, and you need experience to get the job. UGH. The IT job seems ok, maybe a little blah de blah but pays well (and is one the road I live on) the film company is 50 minutes away and seems like my ideal place of employment (media, events, editing, promos, shoots, etc.. etc...) I feel I made a good impression with both but who friggin' knows.

I started interning at 99.9 The Point today and I think I am going to like it there. It's very laid-back, and I cannot wait to start going to events etc... Today I labeled CDs and logged them hahaha, I didn't even mind because I got to listen to the music of the station during it. My supervisor is also really chill, she'd definitaly be someone I could hang out with.

Besides that work stuff, life is good. We went up to Horsetooth 2 days ago and had a photo shoot and monday I walked through this prairie and saw 100 prairie dogs! It was so cool and a beautiful walk (see above). I got a metal NOSTY basket put on my cruiser so I can bring things with me (such as books, snacks, wallets, beers ya know...) Molly and I went food shopping Sunday and got so much healthy food so I've been eating really well so far. I wanna start logging what I eat on here everyday to remember, but it always slips my mind to. I am actually on Molly's MAC book right now and my computer always freaks out when I try to load pics on it. ugh. I made spaghetti squash last night with turkey meatballs and marinara and it was SO GOOD! I am becoming quite the chef.

We want to goto New Belgium tonight for the brew tour but Molly may not get back till 4:30. I've been to the gym twice (EEK) since I've been back so I'll be going today. (I missed yoga soooo much). I went to a class yesterday and there was a very cute guy there. When my warrior pose faced his way I always stared at him.... Oh Fort Collins guys, I've missed you dearly....

That's basically the gist of my life. AND we got our gas bill today (183 dollars) our landlord knows he needs to insulate our windows because thats out of control. And our guy roommate who left and is in Iraq did not contribute anything to it. Bills are so pleasant aren't they?

OK well I'm relaxing for a bit then gym. Tonight I'm making something with edamame and noodles I think, yum...

Dana's visiting in a month, I hope definitaly!

~Erin

Song of the day - Snow - RHCP (good lyrics, and I am cold, haha)

Back in the CO

<---Max and I on the bay. New Jersey is beautiful in some parts (for you skeptics:-)


Hello from Colorado, again!

This will probably be a pretty long time until I can fly home again (stupid high prices), and it was an emotional goodbye in New Jersey. I just got so comfortable being home (and having no worries) but that is not real life basically. I was feeling bummed and then when I got off the plane I saw the mountains and felt a lot better, realizing why I moved out here in the first place. I knew it wasn't going to be easy, and that's the decision I made.

Since I've been back I've been having so much fun though. Literally in the first 2 hours I was back Kelly arrived, Brook came over and we all made dinner and had some wine. It was pretty much like nothing had changed. I'm lucky to have friends who I can laugh with out here. We went out for a bit & I'm pretty sure I was delirious by the end of the night, not to sure if it was the altitude or the blue moons. I tried this wine called Little Black Dress and it was reasonably priced and pretty good (I fell for a marketing scheme of buying it cause the bottle was pretty haha). Kelly's having a Sex Toy party in 2 weeks! I am actually excited for it. It should be interesting! Last night Brook and I went out (Molly had work at 5am, ugh) and met up with my friend Ashley from Tennessee. She's the sweetest girl ever and her boyfriend and his friend were really nice. He even bought Brook and I a drink. Brook also wrote this poem about turtles which is friggin' hilarious but good as well, and she recited it last night. I'll have to get a copy of it.

AND THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT was eating my GYRO! They are so good and the boys that work there are cute little gyro makers. Going out in Fort Collins is always interesting and fun.

I have 2 job interviews this week & I start at the radio station Thursday. I'm hoping for the best but preparing myself for the worst so we'll see how it goes....

I miss my family and friends.....it's all good in Colorado though so I can't complain.

--Erin

Song of the day - "Up On Cripple Creek" - Grateful Dead

Low-key Monday

Today was pretty low key but a lot of fun.

Dana and I took Max for a walk all the way to the bay and I took a TON of pretty beach pics. I'm gonna miss the beach when I go back. Then we made homemade mini-pizzas and watched Sex And The City (which I am still doing now). When I'm hanging out with my sister I can be lazy and not feel guilty about it. My life is gonna be busy and back to normal soon so I'm indulging why I can.

I'm excited to go back. I miss my friends, house, fort collins etc...

I forgot how much I love Sex And The City. It's so clever and entertaining. It makes me wanna get all my friends together and be girly and stupid haha. I can't wait for the movie in May!

Alright, I have to go finish season 6, ha.

And the weather was gorgeous today, soooo beautiful.

Song of the day - "Sea Of Love" Cat Power - JUNO Soundtrack
~ Prettiest voice and song, it makes me smile

Stuck in a broken down jitneyyyy

Everyone who went to AC for Kim & Heather's birthday.



Daryl and I in Game On.....then we all headed over to Firewater, danced, Heather won 200$, went to an Irish Pub, I did a car bomb and nearly fell over. The Jitney was SUCH a good idea... up until on our way back the transmission blew and we were all pretty much gone by then so NONE of us took it seriously and were just laughing. It toko the other Jitney over an hour to get there in the freezing cold. I was laughing so hard. Kim had a crazy night... almost got in a fight with a girl, danced with an old guy. I met some cool kids at The Irish Pub from Indiana (I think?) It was something out of a movie though. Luke walks into the middle of the Jitney after it brokedown and says (totally serious) "This is survival of the fittest". It made NO SENSE but was so funny. We all felt like we were on survivor. I had the best time and miss crazy nights like that so much.


R.I.P Jitney

We were getting hated on all night. The first bar carded us 10 times, then Luke & his friend got kicked out of Firewater for trying to dance with us on the stage, and Kim danced with some girls boyfriend accidently so the girl shoved her and Laina almost busted a cap on the girl, it was hilarious and ridiculous. Guidos galore, some pretty sweet guys though (I notice most of the normal guys hang out at the Irish Pubs)

So today Dana and I saw Juno AGAIN and I LOVED IT AGAIN. If you love sarcasm, smart humor and want to laugh and cry see it, ha.

Ugh....always the day after I drink I am so friggin' lazy. I'm gonna miss this laziness when I head back to CO:-(

This year has been great so far, I think '08 is gonna be sick.

Song of the day - "Anyone Else But" - The Moldy Peaches (JUNO SOUNDTRACK)

Does that make me crazy?

Craziness.



Sooo. I had the craziest dream last night.
I was on an island and had to save my sister and everyone from a huge tidal wave coming! Then I was being filmed in a movie during the whole thing. It was a bug out. I always have dreams where there is a bridge and I have to cross it because of a natural disaster. Maybe I'm feeling like I'm at a cross-roads in my life and the past is trying to pull me back... by a tidal wave? I don't know. I've always been pretty fascinated with dream meanings.

Went to the gym today for about an hour and 15. I love my new ipod it's so fun to have at the gym. Then got coffee and came back home and for some reason decided to clean the whole kitchen and stove, to help my mom I guess.

Sooo.... for another bizzaro addition to today. I was walking Max and glanced on the roof of my house and there was a HUGE vulture just chilling on the roof. AND a bunch of them circling my house. Of course my dad had to say something like "It's a bad omen! And it was over your roof!" It was so freaky. Those things are the scum of the animal kingdom.

Today, choosing to eat healthier I've only had an 100 calorie pack. Not to healthy, but working out curbs my appetite. I think Daryl, Kim and I will prob. go somewhere to eat dinner, being that we love going out to eat.

Kim and I were watching this show last night called "Solitaire" and it's addicting. They have 9 people in these small confined places and have a computer talk to them and tell them to complete these tests, and if the people can't handle it they can quit. The tests are supposed to make you feel crazy. One was them spinning on a chair for like an hour then matching color blocks. I don't know. There's something interesting about watching people in total solitude lose their minds that gets me interested, ha. Crazyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Gotta go shower now. By the way, "I'm Not There" was a good movie. Def. not for everyone. I think people were expecting a bio-pic and that's not what the movie was trying to do. It shows how Bob never was really "there" so to speak and the way he was usually perceived was by him mirroring certain people throughout his life. Cate Blanchett was ridiculously/eerily/amazingly so good in this movie as Bob's whacked out phase/brilliant years/crazy years. Heath Ledger is just hot, Richard Gere was eh... & when "Simple Twist of Fate" came on I was like ahhhh... the scenes during that are moving and I love that song so much, and talk about it all the time. Bob was crazy, but who isn't these days.

AC Tomorrow for Kim & Heather's Birthday. I hope it's as fun as last time was!

--Er

PS - Britney Spears is in mental lock down.....I hope the keep her there.

Song of the Day: "One More Cup Of Coffee" - Bob Dylan - sick song

New Jersey

--messing with my digital camera in the dark to see the "dark" treatment, haha.

Being home has been awesome so far. I went to Renault Winery with my family the day before New Years and this was my meal. It was delicioussssss & my digital camera has an option called "cuisine" hahahaha. Here was my seafood dinner (look at that close up!) & the spinach salad with rasberry dressing. Best salad EVER:





--I'm such a dork.


It's soooo cold today. I tried taking Max for a walk but we cut it short cause my face basically felt like it was falling off. Daryl and I went to Calloways last night and saw some pretty interesting karaoke. One man in a dress shirt who looked like a dad was singing "Let The Bodies Hit The Floor".

It's actually so obvious how TV is making me feel even more gross by playing shows like "Fat Camp" & "Biggest Loser". And now I am going to meet Kim for lunch hahaha. My day is so eventful.

Is it even possible my whole sleeping schedule is still thrown off from New Years?

Alright lata!

While my trick ass mofo guitar gently weeps, word.

http://news.aol.com/entertainment/music/music-news-story/ar/_a/rappers-blending-beatles-into-hip-hop/20080102065609990001 ---- sad sad sad..... It's a shitty stolen hook and a shitty thing to do to a classic song. I respect certain hip-hop artists who collaborate with rock legends, mostly because they get permission and rights to do so. I honestly believe most hip-hop is recycled hooks with rhymes. Don't get me wrong, I love me some good beats to dance to, hahaha, (Jay-z mostly) but most of these rap stars need a wake-up call, and some creativity that doesn't involve butchering original music or repeating themselves 5 million times. Ok I'm done.


-- see for yourself


Happy 2008! My New Years was a blast. Now back to watching "I'm Not There" on the computer with speed going slower than EVER. 30 more minutes, then I'm reviewing it!

Jack Johnson's new album comes out Feb. 8th. I cannot wait. I love Jack and always will, just as long as he doesn't come out with something called "Brushfire Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Come Together Rodeo Clown mix", ha.