The Good, The Bad & The Truth

No one I know (personally) reads my blog. That's the way I like it. I don't know if what I am about to say is "venting" or writing out my confusion with people's decisions lately. So, recently my sister's 2 best friends both found out they were pregnant (Age 21). They are both equally immature, still in their crazy party years and can barely take care of themselves. They said they forgot to use birth control. At first I felt shock, then I was thinking that safe sex is the one thing your cannot be lenient about. Okay, so not done. Today I find out my other friend (Age 23) is pregnant. You may be saying to yourself, "23, that's ok!) It reality, this friend drinks more than any friend I have, smokes 2 packs a day and has no job (still in school). I know these things, "just happen" and you cannot reverse them, but I wonder if these girls actually "forgot" the birth control. The three of them are dramatic and crave attention. Being skeptical, I wonder if these "accidents" are really legit or maybe just a simple cry for help. The miracle of life is an amazing thing, and I am not condemning their right to have a baby. It just seems fishy to me.

I don't know what to feel about it...and I don't know if I ever will until I am in their shoes. It's shocking to me though that these 3 girls, with whom I saw partying it up for at least 3 more years will be with child in 9 months. It's unknown the reasons why our lives take turns, and sometimes the turn comes to a screeching halt. Other times we are finally out of the dark tunnel and events occur that help us to see the light. Crazy events like this are sometimes a sign to chill out or just show someone consequences to their actions. It could be deeper and be a cry for help, or it's as simple as them forgetting to use birth control..... They are the only ones who know the truth.

Ugh...

To Good To Be True

My best friend Ashley called me today with some good news....

The film company that works in her building may be calling me for an interview this week! WHAT????? The owner said my resume was impressive. The thing is, when stuff like this happens to me, I always get this bittersweet feeling. I am excited and overjoyed but also doubtful and psyching myself out at the same time. This job would be a dream come true.... I am not even kidding. Not only would I be working in film production, BUT I'd be working in the same building as my best friend.... Ok see what just happened?

I go off on a tangent about it get all excited then realize, "What if I DON'T get it?" It would be so heartbreaking. It's the paradox of my life. I always did say to myself when I moved out West that, "What's the worst thing that could happen?". I think I need to work on not thinking ahead and just focusing on what is occurring right now. I tend to get ahead of myself to the point where I am on a mountain looking down on myself saying, "C'mon, follow me up!" Or I'm at the bottom of looking up saying, "Erin, come down, you're not there yet".

Besides this new addition to the "job hunting extravaganza" I call my life, I am still waiting to hear about the details of the New Orleans trip. Who knows what it'll entail.

As for my social life, I haven't been this happy in a while with the people I am around. I do miss so many people from CO, but there's a certain comfortable feeling I get when I am around my sister, parents and friends from NJ. I had forgotten a lot of great conversations and points of view that they enlighten me with on a daily basis. Going away from a comfort zone is a good thing because it shows you what your made of, but I think the feeling of returning beats going away any day.

Wow, I'm extremely deep today. Maybe I should tread to shallower waters for a little bit and go watch some Food Network.

And with that a message from Bob:

I don't think the human mind can comprehend the past and the future. They are both just illusions that can manipulate you into thinking theres some kind of change.
Bob Dylan

...so right...all the time

Get by with a little help from my friends...

Sooo, this week was pretty much awesome. Sonia and Marisa came up and we showed them the scenic parts of Foco and the nightlife! The first night we ate delicious food at Coopersmiths, but we soon realized spicy food and beer makes your stomach churn. It was a fun night. We did a Poudre Canyon Drop-off shot which also could explain our stomachs. The next day we drove up 14 and saw sights up The Poudre River. Then that night we started off getting Cappocinis (spelling) coffee and vodka, then sushi at Suheros (YUM by the way) and went to Old Chicago. I played like 100 songs on the jukebox and as always we had a ridiculously fun night. We rented Waitress yesterday. It was a decent movie. It was so cool having a friend from home see where I live out here. I can't believe they drove all the way from AZ. I love my friends.

One week till NJ! I am so excited its not even funny. I gained 10 pounds prob. over the past 2 days so I'm going to be miserable but eat good food all week.

Tomorrow night is Molly's work party at the Hilton so that'll be fun. I'm working all weekend to get hours in, but who cares because I'll have all month off to be with the people I love!!!!

Since the Office is a part of the Writers Strike, no new episode. Grey's Anatomy was soooo good last week though so the second part should be SWEET.

Besides Sonia's visit nothing else too exciting in my life. I'm sad to leave work next week. I love it here:-(

Snow maybe tomorrow!!! AHHH!

Song of the day - "Sweet Thing" - Van Morrison