Diet or obsession...

I stumbled on an article at The Weighting Game about orthorexia. This definitely opened my eyes to a fine line between healthy eating and obsession...

Excerpt:

When eating begins to interfere with your life, monopolize your time or dictate how "good" or "pure" you feel, there's a problem.

There's always a point where you need to step back and draw a line that could save your life.

Glow on over....

I've always been out to find blogs that keep me going back to read each day. I have most of them listed in my "sites I visit". I don't usually advertise on here but, I reeeally love Angela's blog over at "Oh She Glows". Not only for the fact that she featured me in her post today for sending in a "food" post, (it's funny my food consists of coffee and wine!), but she writes on a varied list of topics such as health, food, lifestyle, fashion and product reviews. She also does interactive polls which I love. I am pretty selective with blogs, in that some are hard to read, overly bragging, or trying to "preach" something. Angela's blog is far from anything I dislike. She's sincere and honest and well... just go check it out :-)

Oh She Glows

Tell her Erin sent you :-)

I'm off to eat some sushi and food shop a little. I need ideas for a Thanksgiving appetizer away from the traditional

It's been a long day

First and last drink of the day...




enough said my friends....

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(P.S. I did cheesily place the wine in line with my header on my blog!!)

Positively 4th Street

Had the interview....

And it went VERY WELL! He said I could start off doing part-time odds and ends and office work. I'd also get to goto the film shoots! He's going to call me next week.... to confirm I guess? Honestly I would do ANYTHING (almost!) to just work in film production. He was such an interesting man, not creepy at all just interesting. He paints, does real estate, antique appraisal. He also asked me the most random questions on my interview like.

1. Do you smoke?
2. Have you ever been injured?
3. Are you married (um errr haha)

Whats the weirdest interview questions you've ever been asked?


My best friend Ashley works in the building, who got me the interview, and we went to Java on 4th street for lunch. I had a mozzerella, basil and tomato baquette which was delicious and fresh tasting. I really liked the area the building was in. It is a magnified version of small town Fort Collins, but still eclectic. The commute was about an hour and a half, which if I work out hours I think I can pull-off.

It's weird when you're on the brink of a life change, or on the brink of a let down. I picture myself standing on the edge of an airplane waiting to freefall and it makes my stomach jump. It's these moments in your life though that when you look back on them you daydream about the excitement you felt. I love uncertainty and chaos, unlike others. So I'm going to wait with bated breath for the biggest news of my life.... Translation... I will be going out with my friends tonight and placing all this in the back of my head.

Song of the day: Days Like This - Van Morrison & Positively 4th Street - Bob Dylan (it just seems appropriate:-)

Have a good weekend....

Interview - Check

I got a call from the film company owner.

The interview is tomorrow morning in Philly! Haven't been there in a while! And I get to see my best friend Ashley who I haven't seen in a year! It's a win-win either way I think!

Off to my friend Daryl's then possibly shopping for an "interview" shirt.

Rainy Rainy day here...I just took a long bath and read "Haunted". It's kinda hard to get through....Even though I love Chuck Palahniuk.

Kind of non-exciting day.

Marinating tofu (bbq style) for dinner! YUM.

Happy Thursday~

Shrimp Chowder by Erin&Sis

Just adding...

My sister and I made delicious (spicy) shrimp chowder 2 days ago! We used 2lbs of shrimp and used a lot of ingredients off of Ina Garten's Shrimp Bisque recipe here (we doubled it too):

Ingredients

* 1 pound large shrimp, peeled and deveined, shells reserved
* 4 cups seafood stock
* 3 tablespoons good olive oil (I hate when she says "good")
* 2 cups chopped leeks, white and light green parts (We used carrots celery and onions instead, yum)
* 1 tablespoon chopped garlic (3 cloves)
* Pinch cayenne pepper
* 1/4 cup Cognac or brandy (didn't use this didn't matter)
* 1/4 cup dry sherry
* 4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) unsalted butter
* 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
* 2 cups half-and-half
* 1/3 cup tomato paste
* 2 teaspoons kosher salt
* 1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper



I added some extra spice (curry/cayenne), a bag of shrimp seasoning that you take out after 8 minutes, and some coconut milk (which was SUCH A GOOD ADDITION). I made homemade seafood stock too, which is simply by just putting the shells in the broth.

My dad and mom said it was a little to spicy, BUT I tried it again today and the flavors tasted so good together! I am a spice freak!!!

To Good To Be True

My best friend Ashley called me today with some good news....

The film company that works in her building may be calling me for an interview this week! WHAT????? The owner said my resume was impressive. The thing is, when stuff like this happens to me, I always get this bittersweet feeling. I am excited and overjoyed but also doubtful and psyching myself out at the same time. This job would be a dream come true.... I am not even kidding. Not only would I be working in film production, BUT I'd be working in the same building as my best friend.... Ok see what just happened?

I go off on a tangent about it get all excited then realize, "What if I DON'T get it?" It would be so heartbreaking. It's the paradox of my life. I always did say to myself when I moved out West that, "What's the worst thing that could happen?". I think I need to work on not thinking ahead and just focusing on what is occurring right now. I tend to get ahead of myself to the point where I am on a mountain looking down on myself saying, "C'mon, follow me up!" Or I'm at the bottom of looking up saying, "Erin, come down, you're not there yet".

Besides this new addition to the "job hunting extravaganza" I call my life, I am still waiting to hear about the details of the New Orleans trip. Who knows what it'll entail.

As for my social life, I haven't been this happy in a while with the people I am around. I do miss so many people from CO, but there's a certain comfortable feeling I get when I am around my sister, parents and friends from NJ. I had forgotten a lot of great conversations and points of view that they enlighten me with on a daily basis. Going away from a comfort zone is a good thing because it shows you what your made of, but I think the feeling of returning beats going away any day.

Wow, I'm extremely deep today. Maybe I should tread to shallower waters for a little bit and go watch some Food Network.

And with that a message from Bob:

I don't think the human mind can comprehend the past and the future. They are both just illusions that can manipulate you into thinking theres some kind of change.
Bob Dylan

...so right...all the time

Let the seasons begin... it rolls right on

MUSIC
Sooo, I first heard this song over the summer when I listened to a CD my sister burned. The song is "Elephant Gun" by Beirut. I just stumbled on it again and wow. It is soooo beautiful and at the same time unlike anything I've heard in a while.

When I shut my eyes I'm in a small village dancing around in a flowery skirt with the mariachi band playing. It's AMAZING. Listen here:

The video is out there, but pretty passionate. I think you could describe it best as "drunken splendor". Ahhh.... flowery, vibrant and melodic.

TV
Side note.... It's happened. I've been bit by the vampire bug. Actually my friend Sonia has gotten me obsessed with "True Blood" and has RAVED about Twilight for the past 2 weeks. True Blood is in that phase right now where it will either take off or crash. I think it's intriguing except that lead girl Suki annoys me. The concept is interesting and it plays on the whole good vs. evil card. She said she read the book in 4 days and it's 600 pages AND she hates to read. The series has nothing to do with the book/movie except for the fact that there are vampires involved.

I don't know why this has such an appeal to me. I'm usually down for "The Office" type TV. I watch "Entourage" on Sundays and True Blood is on before. I feel like I've always made fun of "vampire-eqsue" pop culture until now. Maybe I feel like vampires are kinda hot, in the mysterious, kinda eclectic types I usually fall for, who suck the life out of you on their disposal, haha. Sooner or later I'm going to be ordering red wine at bars and using pale cover-up. Watch out. HAHA. I'm buying the book tomorrow to see what all the actual fuss is about. Until then, I'll have to simply assume I was put under hypnosis which caused the obsession.

There is a house in New Orleans......

Soo......

A lot has happened in the last 12 hours.

I recently got a call from the company I had an interview with to shoot a documentary for the Sugar Bowl, and.......

They want me to shoot the documentary!!!!

It's funny I had no idea what the Sugar Bowl was, or that is was in New Orleans, but I'm going from December 30th to January 3rd and well I have absolutely no clue what equipment I'll have, who I'll be with or where I'll be staying. So this is my official first PAID business trip and I hope I have many more! I just can't believe I'm getting paid to go on a trip to shoot video, which is what I love doing. Everything DOES HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

My friend Kim told me about this book called, "The Secret", I'm sure you've heard of it. It's motto is to think about what you want to happen and it will. I wanted this job and believed I would get it and I did. Haha, I may be sounding like an extreme optimist but every time I've used this mantra, it's worked for the most part.

My good friend from college is also passing my resume onto a film producer who works in her building in Philly. We'll see if anything happens. If her and I worked in the same building my life would be complete.


So, this sure beats my self-loathing previous posts about the world and the job market. Even though still no "full-time" job has been landed, I hope this opportunity leads me to new ventures, or just to New Orleans, on New Years? Hopefully I'll get to party a little, hahahaha.

I'm shooting a wedding tomorrow in Hammonton with my co-worker Jay. He's my age so things are usually pretty chill. My friend Jess did know him from high school and told me a pretty incriminating story involving him, his ___ a picture and a piercing. Hmmm.... I can't seem to get this out of my head. And to think I was slightly attracted to him. Maybe I still am, hahahahaha. No one that reads this will tell.

So, Life is good, and has always come around and helped me out when I needed it!

So for music today, I really love Kings of Leon lately and love "Use Somebody" and "Sex on Fire". Trust me, listening to them once won't do it, you'll think it's nothing special. But listen to them again and you'll see what I mean.

Peace, Love, and Future Ventures,
Erin

Proud

~Postsecret entry last week...


Right on....

Bob is a genius

Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.
If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outside
And it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand

Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.

Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'.
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'.

Profound.....and fitting

It may be years until the day
My dreams will match up with my pay


~Mushaboom - Feist


That songs sums up my dream someday, listen to it.

Weather poem

Is is just me or is my weather forecast for the day a cute rhyme poem:

Windy with morning showers
evolving to a steady, soaking rain for the afternoon hours.
Thunder is possible early. High 47F.
Winds WNW at 25 to 35 mph. Chance of rain 70%.
Rainfall around a half an inch.

Hahaha...

I love the rain and love this lazy day. Job hunting is a no-go today. Not feeling it.

The Jobless Horseman

To any jobless twenty-somethings, I feel your pain.

So upon my move back to New Jersey, I figured, "eh this job hunting thing cannot be too bad being that I job hunted in a state I had never been before, by myself and without knowing anyone". The truth is, THIS SUCKS. I spend countless hours everyday applying to any and every position remotely related to video production or editing. Some non-profit jobs and some clerical work too. It's almost a mental slap in the face, but to be truthful and cynical, because the truth IS CYNICAL, having only a college degree just doesn't cut it anymore. I'm not even sure if I am doing the right thing by applying online mostly.

AND to make matters worse, this is the most catastrophic economic crisis in decades! You might as well give me not only a slap in the face but a kick in the ass too. If your not in fields such as:

-Teaching
-Government Work
-Medical/Dental

Seyonora my dream of having a loft apartment in Boston with my high paying job at a video production company.... Just a dream I'll have to put on hold until this slump ends or a miracle happens. Wait, but according to mainstream newspaper articles written by 50-somethings stereotyping our generation, our expectations are too high, and we feel we are all special unique little snowflakes, hindering our success rate. My expectation as of now is to make ANY TYPE OF money, and it's your generations fault we're in this mess.
Sorry for the rant....

It's a hard-knock life for us twenty-somethings

Twenty-something

Perfectly fits my life...

Change of plans...

I've decided I wanna be something bad ass for Halloween so.....



And it's my homage to Angelina, I love her!

Halloween party friday can't wait!

HALLOWEEN

I know what I'm gonna be for Halloween!!

It involves a tool belt and sweetness

Can you guess?......





woot woot

Fallness

Veranzano Wine Festival --- Daryl's having her baby in a week!

I'm back in NJ, moved back around August 1st and am so happy with the decision I made. I am loving seeing all my friends, taking part in the fall activities I love with people I love and for the first time in 5 years being home during this time. The job hunt is going slow but I am working part-time at Alliance Video Productions attending bridal shows and doing videography at the weddings. I am happy life is good.

I recently read an article about listing things you want to achieve in your life to better organize yourself. I have only 5 things I want to accomplish before the end of the year, since I feel like this year I was on overload of achieving crazy things. I can check off "move across the country" for sure:

1. Meditate at least once a day for a half and hour... (When I was at Shambhala Mountain Center working, I meditated at least an hour a day, it's funny how my sleeping has changed since being there. Meditation DOES make you sleep better!!!)

2. Get a job to make some profit... (I don't care if it's remedial, I have my video job on the side. I just want to save some then move out again by next year:-)

3. Exercise once a day...( I have a free gym membership for a week because I can't afford the whole one, but I do Loooooove biking)

4. Focus on the NOW.... With so much grief going on in the country right now, I am thankful to have what I have and be where I am. For people my age today it's really rough finding an entry level job, especially in the corporate world. I was lucky to develop my resume so much in Colorado.

5. READ!.... I looove reading but my TV fix was much needed after Shambhala, haha and I lately have been taking full advantage of that! I have Haunted by Chuck Palhanuik, one other by him and Elizabeth, since I am recently a freak about her time period.

That's about it.... Just been going out with my good friends recently, went to a couple festivals, bridal show, trivia @ the bar, CHEG and yeah it's fall and beautiful in Little Egg.


<3 Erin

P.S ~ Vote for Obama..... I'm not very mainstream political but I feel at ease when I picture him as president.

Song of the day- Ray LaMontagne's new CD, listen on Myspace

HOME!

Back in NJ. Didin't keep up much with this lately. Thinking of starting a blog in a new direction.... Because lately that's the only way I'm heading........

Update soon!

Day in Day out

Soo this week has basically been the most ridiculously overworked week I have ever had. I have been freelancing in Broomfield from 8am to 5 and yesterday went directly from Brookfield to Cafe Vino till 10. I am feeling delirious. The only ME time I've had is when I am sleeping. It's an unreal sad feeling. I just can't fathom how I would ever do this the rest of my life, (work 12 hours a day). Thankfully Broomfield ends today but I'm stuck here copying CDS for my project (WHICH TAKES FOOOOORRRREEEVVERRR) and I have Cafe Vino again tonight at 5. I seriously seriously need extreme fun tomorrow or I'll freak out.

Besides working I am still interning one day a week at 99.9 which is fun, and I went to Denver Friday for Kelly's "Passion Party" which was so funny. I have been eating horribly because I never have time to.

Ok well I'm done complaining. I need a weeks worth of yoga after this week.

In Broomfield I've been editing footage of the National Western Stock Show (I knowwww), and also this pre-school promo they are doing which wasn't bad at all.

Cafe Vino is sweet, there is just soooo many people to get to know. I am basically helping out when I am there getting dishes, helping bring out plates, water etc.... ya know brain surgery. I honestly don't even care that it has nothing to do with my hopes, dreams, aspirations... in the words of Boston, "All I want is to have a piece of mind"............

I met a girl at Vino who is 32 and worked in the parks up until she moved back to CO. She's 32 working as a waitress and happy. I'm not saying that's my ultimate goal but bottom line is, she's happy.

I can't say I am miserable, but I am not liking my life this week.
But one good thing is......
Anddddd Dana comes in 13 days!
Bridget's wedding is in July and is going to be SICK!

I got 4 free CDS from the radio station, RHCP "Stadium Arcadium", Ingrid Michealson, Maroon 5 and The Killers. I LOVE RHCP's CD. the others are pretty good too.

Alright I seriously need to get out of here before I freak.

Song of the day - "Piece of mind" - Boston